Dusty Pint

Sleep, Sleep,Sleep any one

2010-08-07T08:22:00.002-05:00

Last night it was torture
trying to get some sleep...
Finally fell asleep this
morning and that's when
my Cat decided he was
starving...
Strangle Cat (insert here)
My biggest goal for today
is clean my kitchen..
Fun times!!!
I have had 2 big headaches
this week that has landed
me in the Dr office...
My Dr. was gone Friday
and so I had to deal
with a completely different
Dr that doesn't understand
me and my headaches...
I was so frustrated and
upset that it made it worse...
Wont be seeing him again...
Oh Well
I am dealing with a lot of
pain again today...
Just trying to grin and bear it...
Why must I suffer so bad???
Well I'll post more later...
Pain-8
Deperisson and anxiety-5

Only half the day

2010-08-05T18:30:00.002-05:00

Today I only spent
half the day in bed...
Thats better then
yesterday...
I wish that I would
feel better right now...
So if you were in my
shoes what would
you do differently???
I dont know what else
to put on here today
other then feeling
cruddy...
Pain 7
Anxiety 5

What would you tell Me

2010-08-04T12:27:00.002-05:00

Today I am going
back to bed...
So what would
you tell me after
reading that???
Even thou I feel cruddy
and hurt all over....
Would you tell me to
suck it up and
get up any ways???
So what would
you tell me???

Pain 5/6
Anxeity 3

OMG!!!

2010-07-28T13:05:00.002-05:00

Holy Hannah
I slept last night
for about 10 hrs...
Every once in while
I can get more sleep
then 5hrs...
Last night I
must have been
totally wiped out
in order to sleep
like a normal
person...
I hope that I
didn't just jinx
myself for posting
this...
But for some reason
I have a head ache
coming on...

Drat, almost a
normal day!!!
Pain=Low
Anxiety & Depression
Low

Happy Monday???

2010-07-26T17:25:00.003-05:00

I put on Face book today
"Happy Monday"
What was I thinking...
I really trully always
never have a good
Monday...
This is always a day
I should just stay
home and keep even
the computer off...
Tomorrow is Tuesday
and it will be a new day...
Today's pain level is
about a 6
Depression & Anxiety
is about 8-9

time flies by

2010-07-25T17:21:00.002-05:00

It's almost 2 weeks
since that word has
been said to me...
Fibromyalgia
And the last
couple days have
been emotionally
hard...
I know I will
be OK
But I also know
life will not be
the same...
Yesterday and
today have been
the hardest...
I called some one to
ask if it was OK that
all I do stare at the tv
or drone out my
thoughts with my
ipod???
I've been told it's a
process...
I am OK but
I'm not OK
Understand???
Tomorrow I will get up
and shake this off
and start taking charge
Tomorrow I will
learn more about this
disease and how to
live with it...
But I would really like
some idea of what to do...
It's unique as your own
fingerprint how this will
effect some one...
I just have to remember to
take one day at a time...

From here on out...

2010-07-24T12:07:00.002-05:00

I will use this as
my diary of the
week to week
life with Fibromyalgia....

Skippy Happy???

2009-04-30T02:07:00.002-05:00

Rain Rain Rain

Even some more Rain...

Damn Skippy Happy?

2009-04-29T06:00:00.001-05:00

More crappy weather ahead...

Nope I will not do it!

2009-04-28T19:07:00.003-05:00

No, I will not wear socks!!!
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
No No No No No No No No No
There is no Snow...
It is supposed to be May Showers...
What the HELL is this???
My FEET are freezing...
Wait this isn't Hell...

ME-YOU

2009-04-27T19:06:00.002-05:00

So when you shut off
that light and lock the
door, Who are YOU?
Would you be the same
person that I see the
next day?
We all drop some sort of
screen when the door
closes a night...
How much of a screen do
you have?
So that is YOU

ME?
I would usually say that
this is what you get...
Some times you have to be-
Nice!
Grrrrrrrrrr
I don't do that well all
the time
None of us do, but every
one tries to hide that they
are trying to be....
ME,
Very seldom do I hide it....
Why cant every one just except
some people are better at
being unhappy and stop
trying to "Fix" us...
Because I don't smile all day
and skip to your Lou
10 years I'll get a face lift
so it looks like I am smiling
Happy?

I laugh
I smile
I enjoy
I do it most when others don't
see it I guess...
We all hide things from
others and if we just don't
want to be Damn Skippy
all the time, leave it alone...

Then I'll be Damn Skippy

2009-04-25T10:11:00.001-05:00

Even a Back Woods Barbie gets her
feelings hurt...

2009-04-09T21:53:00.001-05:00

Live Well,
Laugh often,
And Love much.

2009-04-08T10:43:00.001-05:00

Share an Embarrassing
moment with a friend!

Just to Damn funny!

2009-04-07T08:53:00.002-05:00

I was over at Brent Riggs site
It's laugh Tuesday, right???
He made a comment about Abby
She wiped her hands on her pants
OK I wont tell more, if you know
him just go over there and
Get The Rest Of The Story
Well I think I am back!!!
Just going thru my rough
times between the flooding and
the problems with my laptop
and not having answers....
Well the heck with it....
I am BACK now matter what I
have to do to chat at whoever
wants to read this.
The Boo Ho is over.
The Flooding will hit again
Easter Sunday but I know God
is behind and in front of us.
We are prepared as most as
an area can be for a level of
43 feet...
I live an hour away but it is where
Mom and my sister live...
Wish us Luck, but mostly
BLESSINGS....

Sandbagging, cleaning, 15 inches of snow

2009-04-05T20:15:00.002-05:00

Doesn't that really just say it all...

The river is coming

Nice day- Clean every thing

15 inches of snow????

Eating bad food drinking soda in
the am and beer in the pm....

Shovel, Shovel, Shovel,

Doesnt that just tell you every thing I
have been doing....

Ask if you want more info!

Do you know what COLD means?

2009-03-26T05:38:00.002-05:00

The temps being so cold does not
help the flood fight up here.
Sand bags turn hard at these
temps and don't sit well together.
Gosh Darn Freaking Cold
More later...

Time Marches On

2009-03-25T20:43:00.002-05:00

After losing such a great teacher that
has helped so many, time marches on.
My life still has issues and every day is
far from good.
But time doesn't stop for us.
So here we go back to life and time
for another sh_t hit the fan week.
We are Flooding and it is Snowing.
This is so cold and wet.
Tomorrow will be the big push.
We could crest Fri but it is more
likely happen on Saturday.
Well I am tired and I will post pictures
on Sunday.
Hope every one else stays dry this
weekend.

Why, Why, Why

2009-03-15T21:44:00.002-05:00

God Why do I have to keep going thru HELL...
I usually have this thing with death.
Well we all have issues with death.
If just one person dies and nothing else
happens in a few months I know it's
going to be OK.
But if the 2nd person dies usually about
within 2 months I know it's going to be
HELL
Guess what, the other shoe dropped...
I lost a very great person last Monday
This woman set in motion the positive
and great me when I was a teenager.
I will put more in later I have a phone
call and a few things done.
I will post later.
Love you all

Maybe a call to the Looney Bin

2009-03-11T01:15:00.002-05:00

I love the snow we get in the
Winter when every thing is
White and clean
But it now I have cabin fever
and it is very bad and I have
appt with a tanning bed Thurs.
During the spring and summer
I spend most of the day outside
Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinner
I read for hours and e mail out
on my deck
Right now you cant find my deck
under all this snow
So if I am blue for a day or two
just check back
Talk to me when we have a bit
of Sun

Please send me a Sunlamp!

2009-03-10T23:53:00.003-05:00

OK, This is really getting old
March hits and I want to run
around with no shoes with painted
toe nails and cute sandals
I just want to sit out side and be out
of this damn house and be warm
How can any one be happy at this
point with the cold and damn
budgets so you are always sitting
around in the cold
I would love to turn the heat up to 75
strip off the layers of clothes
Well wont I be Bitching about that in
about July
Well I am going to look out the window
at all the snow fly by it is now really
Fracking COLD
Night

Dearly OMG!!!

2009-03-09T22:17:00.002-05:00

Where have you been?
What the heck has been more
important then this spot?
HHMMMMMM
I want an answer...
Well, nothing...
I have been doing things
Picking on 2yr olds with their
little tudes and needing a nap
Watching hours and hours of
ANGEL
Spending the weekend doing
this and that while watching
ANGEL
So now we all are getting ready for
about a foot of snow.
Well actually more than a foot of snow
But really who is paying attention.
Da Like every one!
So who will come shovel me out???
Little ol me!!!

Sad, Sad, Sad

2009-03-01T09:54:00.002-06:00

It finally dawns on you how much
your family has issues when some
one dies that you grew up listening
to and you you cry and snivel and
decide that you will do nothing for
the rest of the day because you are
to Sad....
We may need therapy for this...

Really?

2009-02-23T17:20:00.002-06:00

Please dont ask me what all this
Weirdness is with my last post
It's Monday so of course it's
Messed up.............

Damn... It is just like a Monday!

2009-02-23T16:44:00.003-06:00

I really thought I was doing good today.

Get into town to do laundry and pay bills

Call Sirius Radio to turn my radio back on

Get into the Dr. for some pain killers

Started out late to town because some idiot

has been watching the History channel for

like 2 days because the cable station has

finally decided we can carry it now

4 large jumbo washers full of clothes and

blankets because some one decided it was a

great time of the year to get sick for like a

month, maybe it was only 3 weeks

11 dryers and an hour later

Pow all the dryers are done

Now to start folding, folding, folding

and some more folding

Spent a good 30 min on the phone with

the Sat radio people on hold

Then at the of the conversation only to

find out that some thing is wrong with

my antenna for the radio

Now have to order a new one when I find

one online
The Dr. didn't have any thing open for me to
just pop in and get a refill on my pain meds
I now have to drive 45 miles again to just
pop in for my refill tomorrow
I do understand the rules for these type of
pain meds but can't they understand my very
tight budget and it doesn't have room for all
this driving not to mention the fraking pain

Ok it has been a long day
Just like a Monday always is for me
So I am going to take a very hot soak
and lay down as soon as I can
Do your Mondays end up like this?

Damn Matt where are you @

2009-02-22T22:22:00.002-06:00

Where have you and Maddy been???
We miss you!

Headache & Fridays

2009-02-20T00:37:00.002-06:00

Wow Lucky Me

I am about 40 min into Friday and
I have a Fraking headache...
One that is only go away if I fall asleep
and I am a few hours away from sleeping.

So great what am I going to do?

Suffer thru it like always.

I want to take off for the weekend really
bad but it is the time of the year when
it is really not a great idea financially.
I just want a trip, a few days away,
phone off, chilling, hot tub soaking.

Please some one take me away!

I need some thing....

2009-02-19T10:16:00.002-06:00

I neeed toooo get out of here...
Do you just feel some times that
you need a little trip?

I'm getting to the point I will
leave the country if you give
me the option.

So where should we go?

Let me know...
For right now I am going to
start a hot bath and take a
really good soak.
Make a little lunch,
call the school and a few
other places to see what I
need to do before we take
off.
But I need it to really warm up
before I leave also...
Still -9 below at 10:30 am

Monday, Monday

2009-02-16T16:08:00.002-06:00

God do I even need
to say more?

Every one of us have
our different days we HATE
and Monday is mine...
It really is the worst day
if my Moday is SHIT the
rest of the week is SHIT

I would even try to go
back to bed and start over
again next Monday if
people would let me.

Well this week may not be
so bad. Then again I have
said that before and it has
come right back to slap me
really hard.

Maybe I'll wait till tomorrow
and tell you the out look of this
week!!!

2009-02-12T23:07:00.000-06:00

There are some days when every side of the bed is wrong!

Good Grief Charlie Brown!

2009-02-12T16:28:00.003-06:00

OK About 2 weeks ago I told you I had Strep throat. Well guess what? What you say? I still have it. Plus an Ear Infection. Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Don't you just get those days that you want to beg, plead and give away your first child just to be sedated for 2 days. Nose is red. Check Throat red and sore. Check Flying snot when you sneeze. Check It really cant get any better. Can it? 2 & half weeks off and on of this crap. Can't you tell how excited I am about this... Well these are all the reasons that I have not been posting. I also just can't keep my thoughts in order also. Well after a few Dr. visits and much money to the pharmacy I think I will be back in the next few days to bug you. How about that??? Never mind your excitement is killing me.

At Last

2009-02-01T07:22:00.001-06:00

Just ask me some other time what this means.
It is here just as a reminder for the moment.
But there is always a story...

Those icky kids...

2009-01-31T10:11:00.003-06:00

Hey I really do like kids as long as they go home with you at the end of the day. My daughter and I have a great time and she is older now. We spend a lot of time together and usually have a good time. But other kids I have about a 6 hour limit. Maybe it was 4 hours. But I have a very good feeling it was some kid who gave me strep this last week. I'm going to live but do you know how bad a throat can hurt even if you don't have Tonsils any more. I promise to get back on here again and keep my nonsense rambling but I still want a pain killer...

EX GOV. Mr. Blagojevich

2009-01-29T18:16:00.002-06:00

Please do not help us any more!!!

Who gave me this?

2009-01-28T10:46:00.002-06:00

In bed again off and on for the last few days. I ended up with one of those things floating around my daughters school or was it at a friends house from hugging on her kids? No idea but I am not touching a kid ever again. Please pass the NyQuil and Tylenol and I am going back to sleep for a while maybe the rest of the day. OK I'll try this again tomorrow if I get out of bed.

Today She is 11!

2009-01-22T12:48:00.004-06:00

WoW!!! She turned 11 today! Where does the time go? This was taken a few years ago in Fargo at Space Aliens. I think we are little to happy on caffeine. I thought it was the perfect picture for today. She heads out tomorrow for her favorite water park that she always goes to for her birthday. Love you Punk!!!

Maybe some one should call a cleaning crew...

2009-01-21T13:13:00.004-06:00

OK It isn't as bad as I make it look. We had gone thru a really bad snap with weather and had either been in 2 rooms. The living room or my bedroom. Well they both need Help and I just don't feel like doing it yet. I just feel really lazy after all that cold. I will get it done. Right? Right after I make lunch and maybe a nap. By the way those soda cans are from yesterday and today. I bring them in to the local recycling center every month so I just cant throw them. Time to break out a new bag to put those in. It never ends...

These 2 selpt the whole time...

2009-01-20T11:49:00.004-06:00

I went in and tried to wake these 2 up on commercial breaks. Didn't work at all. They are in there sleeping mode and will be up to address every one in about an hour or so. They are night Owls. They wait for the child to go to school in the morning and then they head off to bed till 12 or 1p.m. then have a snack and a stretch and back to a nap again for a little while again...

Every one glued to the t.v.?

2009-01-20T11:32:00.004-06:00

WoW, Here we go...

I am excited to see where we go with this new administration.
I am a republican when it comes down to it, but I have been brought up that what ever party has the office We will respect. We respect the person and stand behind him. I will probably be watching t.v. for then next 3 days to see.

It is all done!

2009-01-19T15:46:00.004-06:00

By the way I just want every one to know that Christmas is over, no more, see you all next year. Now will some one get over here and haul it out put it in the garage, and don't forget to put labels on the bins this time. K Or we will have a hard time all over again next year. And we are not up for that...

Let us all have a fun week!

2009-01-19T15:08:00.003-06:00

I know that this Girl is. She has a Birthday on Thursday! She has plans for this week and has bigger plans for the weekend. Can I turn 11 again to please? I know I started off really deep and I will answer myself here as I find them. I just know that I still want to find and do more then I am. Does that make any sense? We are going to watch every thing at the Capitol tomorrow and then we are planning a cupcake night on Thurs. for this goofy kid as she turns 11...

Getting down to the Nitty-Gritty!

2009-01-18T12:16:00.004-06:00

How do I get down to the Nitty-Gritty?
To all of us it is different and the basics are very different for each of us.
This is not a New Year hang-over wake up call. Jeez, I was home alone and
had 3 glasses of wine. It's a wake up call about what I want to see in my future
and where I want to be in the future.
10 years ago I was a extrovert. Life of the party, always on the go, had to return every
phone call. Couldn't sit still had to keep the world moving around me.
How many credits could I take in college, how many hours could I delivers pizzas
2 or 3 nights a week? How much time could I put into Student Senate in a week?
How many Senate trips can I do in a month? I did it!!!
Did it all turn out the way it was planned? Nope!
Before all that, I had a daughter on January 22, 1998.
I was with her father for a while. It was both our faults it didn't work.
I always thought I was tyring to make it work. I was so wrong.
But I moved forward.
Really? Where has this forward taken me?
After 10 years here I am. I live in Central Minnesota.
It has been a great pausing place and I love being back by the lakes I grew up with.
I am very happy that we have lots of Snow, but the Cold has really taken a toll.
So the Nitty-Gritty of this is now what?
Get to the heart of what I want for the future?
I really do want to stay in the country. Set my own pace for every day for my daughter and I.
But I really want to be more connected to Peeps...
I guess I have a lot of thinking, and pro and con lists to work out.
Maybe I should pick up a large map, some pins and a blindfold.
Ha Just Kidding!!! Kinda

Who am I?

2009-01-18T00:47:00.003-06:00

I have been asking this question of myself recently, and I need to start nailing this down. I am almost 32 and this is a question that most start wanting the answers by 30. So really who am I?

I am checking for 10 Fingers and 10 Toes!

2009-01-16T08:18:00.004-06:00

Yipeeeee
We are going to reach above zero today. I checked last night and
also this morning, I have all my fingers and toes still, no frostbite
here. I'm still waiting till the afternoon to run a few errands.

I have to say some thing to a little boy I know in Fargo.
Happy Birthday Finn!!!

But Thank God it is Friday!
My daughter M doesn't have to trudge out to the bus tomorrow.
We will sleep in till 9 or 10 and have waffles with local maple syrup.
I did the laundry early on this week, so that is done with the exemption
that M has to put hers away and tidy up her room.
So all N all we should have a pretty boring weekend. I could only hope.
I know that it will not be that boring. When you have neighbors like
mine there are going to need some thing over the weekend.
I already know that their cars wont start and the last time they were at
the grocery store was Mon... I am sure they are out of their basic needs and
will want to go to town tomorrow. I really hope that R's boyfriend is around
this weekend to take them. I know that sounds bad but I need a break from
their needs and now just focus own my own for a while.
My daughter M will turn 11 next Thursday. Good Grief I am getting older and older.
My Mom, Grandma from up North and I buy her things all thru the year so we
really dont buy big things at Christmas and her B-Day. I think that was kinda
hard for her to understand at first but she really sees the benefit now...
Spoiled child!!! She deserves it...
The only thing she really wants next week for her birthday is to load her Mp3
player with music. And of course to have PIZZA.
Well off to tap the mercury in the thermometer again to see if it will rise a little...
If it wont rise I will use one of the cats as a foot warmer or maybe a neck wrap.
Keep warm...
Rambling on Rachel

Is there any thing else to complain about???

2009-01-15T06:11:00.001-06:00

Good Morning!
I am finally doing this. Plunging into the scary world of Blog.
Well not that scary, just I'm now going to let people that I don't know
into our little world of 1 parent, 1 child, 2 Cats.
Yes I do know that I am pathetic. Really Cats??? 31 years old
and I already have 2 Cats.
We are at about the coldest day of the year in Central MN and since
there is now way of getting me to venture outside, I have started a Blog.
Just to remind any one who reads this, this is where we are...
-32 below Zero with Wind Chill @ about -55...
Come on, really?
I think I also should open another Savings account to retire to Costa Rica.
I only have 20 years to work on that...
I have been watching our local news channel and there are only 2 schools in
about a 100 mile radius that isn't either running 2 hrs late or closed.
My daughters school is one of the 2 that is staying open. I am not sending
her out there. I know she shouldn't miss but I really don't think that it is
safe for children on a bus at these temps. That is my opinion.
Wait, wait there is the Weather Channel again. I am having an OCD problem
at the moment. It's always on if I am not watching some thing else.
I need back round noise. Don't ask it's just one of those things...
Well I need to turn up the heat on the electric blanket again and maybe
try a nap.
Thanks for reading
Rambling on Rachel